oh the wonderful things you can think...

So, I have been in little kid mode lately. I went to the drive in for the first time in forever (how I have missed you!) and saw Night at the Museum 2, which was wonderful I might add. I had a weekend with the family that was surprisingly somewhat pleasant, which is a rare occurance. I thank GOD for that. But I will say, the more I'm at home around people I grew up with, the more I realize how much GOD has changed me since then. It makes me really excited to see what HE's done, but it's also kind of weird. These people don't know me any more. They think they do, but they don't. So, just watching that dynamic was kind of interesting. It also made me hurt, because many of them are stuck in their ways. I don't know. It was bascially a bittersweet weekend. But praise GOD for what HE's done.

..:getaway:..

Monday afternoon, I went to the center when I got out of class. I saw Nikki there and we decided to enjoy the gorgeous day at the Greenway. About 5 steps down the path, I expressed my thought that this day would have been perfect at Rock Island. After a brief exchange and sprint back to the car, we headed off to Rock Island. It was absolutely gorgeous and we had a blast! The water was super high and there was some serious white water...oh and it was freezing. But, all of these were what made it awesome!! I have a serious attachment to Rock Island because it's such a gorgeous creation of GOD. You should visit sometime..

back to school.

Well, I have been out of school for less than a week, and it's time to begin again. I'm taking 2 classes this summer so I can graduate in December. The light at the end of the tunnel keeps getting brighter. I'm just not looking forward to having to get up early again, although the newest member of our family did wake me up around 7 this morning.

This precious little baby is Joplin. Jenny has been wanting a lab for a while, and on my trip to Walmart yesterday, Joplin and her sisters were in the parking lot being given away for free. I called Jenny, who was en route to Jackson for Mother's Day. She freaked out, and after some pictures were exchanged via the wonderful cellular network, I picked precious little Joplin out for her. The youngest member of Grandmaville, she is a mere 7 week old baby. She's a big cuddler =).

why...

Why?

Why do they sit and cry?

Why?

Why do I just sit by?

FATHER, forgive YOUR child.

I don't know how; I'm not equipped.

I'm lost without YOUR great help.

FATHER, teach YOUR child.

Show me how, Show me where,

FATHER, teach YOUR child.

Burden me.

Burden me with their cry.

Don't let me just sit by...

So thank you Jenna for tagging me in that lovely blog game. haha. This is me right now chilling in the KUC skipping class. I guess I'll tag Rachael (take a pic of you right now without primping and put it on here) and pretend to tag T because he doesn't blog, he just stalks other people's blogs.

In other news, my mom somehow managed to call me and say, "Hey, I have 2 free VIP passes to that crawfish boil you wanted to go to." So, needless to say, I will be running away to Birmingham for the weekend after my back to back Immunology and Physiology finals on Friday. I'd say that I'm deserving of a runaway weekend haha. Jason Mraz and I will be getting married there shortly after I tell him that he loves JESUS..or maybe it's that JESUS loves him..regardless, it's happening and you're invited!

days like these

Days like these never cease to amaze me. Yeah, sure I see GOD in the rain, snow, storms, but absolutely gorgeous sunny days like this amazing one just floor me. That is grace, my friend. I walked out of the house at 7:45 this morning in shorts and a t-shirt, not freezing while waiting for it to warm up, but already enjoying the near 70 degrees temperature. Hopefully, much of my day will be spent outside enjoying it.

GOD is so good. When you finally stop trying to do everything on you own and just give it to HIM, HE takes over and mends. HE is grace and love and mercy. I'm jacked up to the nth degree, yet somehow he fixes my messes and loves me anyway.

I went to Sanctuary last night after GOD took over and fixed some things. It was some awesome, much needed worship time. I honestly had to stop myself from dancing during it which is unreal. I don't dance, just kinda bounce around. I refrained because I didn't want to be the weirdo haha. Not sure what that means or why I just wrote that, but yeah it's true. No shame here. But in the presence of my GOD all I want to do is praise HIM with every ounce of me. Man, I love HIM! Thank YOU for today.

lovecrylaughrunchillquitworkhelpgrowdealwhy?

The title of this blog pretty much sums up the swirling thoughts in my head. I feel like there are so many things running through my mind. They don't get seperated or sorted. They just bog me down until I'm just overwhelmed and then have no idea what is overwhelming me. Then, I don't even know what to do.

I have felt lately so distant from GOD. It's like I cry out to HIM but HE doesn't show, when everything in me knows that's not the case. I really feel like I'm just in a state of desolation and being attacked by Satan, using my weakest points to distort reality into something it's not. I have had to spend alot of time in repentance lately. I haven't been who I want to be and my life hasn't been an act of worship. There are 2 songs that have had some serious impact on my reaching this breaking point of getting all this out of my head and onto here. The first is a song with a chorus that goes like this...

ALL OF YOU IS MORE THAN ENOUGH

FOR ALL OF ME, FOR EVERY THIRST AND

EVERY NEED. YOU SATISFY ME WITH

YOUR LOVE.

The other is a Misty Edwards song...

i don't want to talk about YOU like

YOU're not in the room. i want to look

right at YOU. i want to sing right to YOU.

Any prayers are definately appreciated..against feelings of inadequacy, anger, lonliness, helplessness, disappointment, rebellion. Alot of stuff for alot of different reasons. It's just nice to get a little out...just let it rain, GOD.